Well folks, it’s 10:45pm on June 30th and while I have made some updates to at least four more drafts, there is definitely no chance that I will post them in the next hour and fifteen minutes. But guess what? I published SEVEN posts in the last 3 weeks, compared to 7 posts in the 9 whole months before that. I definitely got my mojo back and I have no shame whatsoever about not making it to the arbitrary number I set for myself.
Have I managed to completely let go of perfection and not edited a few of those 7 posts to death? No… but I definitely gained some courage and made some progress. I’m still going to finish 4 more drafts, because it’s been a great project and because it doesn’t have to be all or nothing (as in, if I didn’t post them by the time I said I would, I can’t post them at all).
In the meantime, thanks to all of you who have been following along and liking and commenting and encouraging me. And HAPPY JULY!
I really appreciate you sharing your struggle with perfectionism, especially as it relates to your blog. I’ve tended to read amazing blogs such as yours and, assuming each post was completed in one step, I’ve berated myself for not having the same high quality in my blog. It has helped me to realize that I shouldn’t be so hard on myself or automatically assume everyone else is intrinsically better than me. Your transparency and honesty is so refreshing.
Oh my gosh, thank you so much!!! I’m so glad to hear you are realizing you don’t have to be so hard on yourself. I tend to beat myself up for long gaps with no posts, but sometimes I just can’t seem to finish anything. And finding mistakes when I read something back later drives me completely crazy. In my experience feeling like we are the worst of everyone (or the best at being the worst 😉 ) is pretty common, but we clearly can’t ALL be the worst, right?
Congratulations! For letting go of perfection and freeing all those posts. For acknowledging your accomplishments. And for giving yourself grace. And thank you for sharing all that with us.